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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-01 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe he senses something in her murmur, his other hand coming to lay over hers as they walk together. Does not dispute this assessment of his bravery—because he supposes that's so—but does set about thinking of what a more truthful framing of this information might be.

He isn't quick to get there, listening instead. "There's wisdom to that," he offers, mildly. "But there's a wisdom to knowing how to defend yourself, if you must."

It's not as though Marcus has forgotten the things she's been through, and so if his comment grazes against those recollections, it's only because there is only so much two mages speaking can do to step around the realities of their own history.

So he adds, "It might have been brave, but it was also satisfying. Standing in place, you know. There were plenty of times prior to that when swinging my staff at someone could only be a fond fantasy."
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-01 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"No,"

is the kind of agreement that comes with recognising a close call. There was a wave of newly-freed southern mages who were immediately drunk on new found power, and Marcus cannot say he didn't sympathise. Didn't feel its potential edge, the way so much anger suddenly given outlet could twist around. His thumb smooths over her knuckles.

Feeling her tension, in some small way, the distant shapes of things unsaid. He knows her well enough (and understands it well enough) to guess at their dimensions, a little.

"Better we never needed to learn," he offers, after some steps. "But you're good at it. Quick, strong. Did you come by your lightning, at Dairsmuid?"
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-02 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
"I like it."

Whether Marcus likes it or not, he's sure, is far from the point. And what that means, to like it, to know some adrenalised thrill at the sound of it, crackling energy and bright white flash, the sort of primal danger that should make the animal in him, as it should in anyone, flinch back, but knowing so well he needn't—well, he wouldn't know where to begin in articulating it, strolling with her.

So, I like it will have to do, near-muttered and a little self-deprecating for how unhelpful a comment it is. It is a complicated thing, wielding the kinds of magic that have justified their histories. And present. Perhaps future.

"I had some difficulties when I was young, as well. I don't know that I properly mastered anything until I was grown."
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-02 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
"Not really."

Digging up memories from the days prior to the Circle feels, likewise, a little like piecing together a story he was more told and otherwise only half-remembered.

"I produced some cinders in a fight with a sibling, I'm told, but to the best of my knowledge, no one was hurt. It wasn't long after that that I was brought to the Circle, which I didn't take to very well. It was a place that demanded obedience, full of other children I had no desire to be friends with, and I had a growing instinct for magic that outstripped my skill in controlling how I felt."

This is all said plainly. He has, before, been frustrated with mages who speak of their experiences of Circles in vaguer terms, like I was a poor student, as though it were all so normal. She is curious, and he doesn't mind sketching that picture to some small extent.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-02 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
She stops him, and asks him so earnestly. Marcus feels no compulsion to lie, but can imagine doing so. Yes, he loves his magic, and always has.

Instead, he says, "We weren't taught to," even, quiet. "It was in equal measures a thing to be afraid of, like a sickness, or a responsibility we never asked for, that we weren't permitted to indulge." His hand comes up, settles fingers gentle at her neck, a tender touch as if to say that he is well, how long ago it all was. "But I think I made allies with it despite everything, even if I couldn't make it my friend."

It never felt like the enemy, magic, no more than unbridled rage could be beaten back. Tamed, over time, honed, and his.

"How was it, for you?"
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-04-02 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes, there's grief.

It can't be grief all the time, paralysing force as it is. In another world, he'd sat on the banks of a river and tried to explain it to a rifter, which is a unique absurdity, but it felt important to explain why he'd been weeping at the time, and isn't certain he'd truly honed in on it, too quick to reach for anger. It isn't all the time for the injustices done, but for the absence of what could have been theirs. What a revelation it had been, to meet Derrica.

And it hurts, sometimes, to hear of Derrica's experience, and hurts, always, to remember how it had been stolen from her too. She should have grown more into it. She's still so young, in the scheme of things, and nearly a child still when it was all destroyed. A happy childhood doesn't mean that grave injustice wasn't done to her too.

But she always loved her magic. That, the Chantry couldn't take.

The hand at her throat sweeps a gentle touch of the pad of his thumb against her jaw and cheek for her apology, accepting it.

"I became better with it, later," he says, "in part because I realised so many of those other children I'd hated felt as I did. Children that would become men and women in a rebellion, but it was enough at the time to have them as brothers and sisters."

He goes to take her hand, to pull her back into walking with him.

"I'd have wanted something different for us all, but we didn't have nothing."
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-17 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
Marcus doesn't answer for a few moments. He doesn't want to lie to her to make everything feel neat or duck her sympathy; he doesn't want to make much of something that isn't, an amount of pride that would like to separate himself out from the other southerner mages who regard their own magic with distaste, fear, resentment.

"I don't now if it's love," he says, finally. "But there're moments. Like."

And another pause, searching around for the rest of that sentence. Strange to think how much he has spoken to mages of the Circles, the Chantry, of war and brotherhood and freedom, and so relatively little of magic itself. That hint of instinctive reluctance against speaking to its most dangerous aspects.

"Learning how to call fire and rock from the ground. That wasn't taught to me. We learned to light candles instead, and Chantry verses, or making feathers fall upwards. But then we were out, and it was like there was so much more to me. That I could rend the earth apart and make it do what I wanted. It was everything I dreamed."

It's the sort of talk that ordinary folk fear to hear from a mage, he knows. But none of those are around.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-17 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
It grazes against something tender, those words. A little painful, beneath layers of bone and muscle and a habit for stoicism. He still has her hand, so he can express something through the squeeze of his around and tangled through her fingers.

Him too, the gesture says.

"I intend to make up for lost time," could come out a little dry, defensive humour in the for of self-awareness, a subtle joke about how much he intends to use his magic in the present and near future, potentially not only in service of defeating Corypheus. It is a little too earnest for that, instead.

It would be pleasing to know that the things he says make her want him. It's more than enough to find what he expected, which is her understanding.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-17 06:54 am (UTC)(link)
It brings about a subtle change in disposition, where inner reflection is abandoned for outward focus, snagging attention across scorch marks and then up towards the tree line. Nods, at that, and then where their hands are joined, sweeps his thumb across her knuckles before releasing her, reaching back to gather the lead of his horse.

Kevin, behind him, whickers gently, and it's only a second longer to catch the scent of burning plantlife.

"We can tie these two here," Marcus suggests. Then, something like concession, "I'll keep my distance if it's something we can both pin down." Rather than a fear demon and its ability to crackle through the Fade.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-18 12:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Rock."

The humour in a simple, blunt answer (not unlike the material being offered) is not deliberate, but recognised on a delay, a small twinge to his expression as Marcus glances to her from where he's tying the leads to the low sling of a sturdy branch. "I can slow it first," he adds. "Then you cage it, and then I'll bludgeon it."

The horses will have enough room to themselves, moss and grass to nibble at—and Kevin already ducking his head in to investigate, temporarily forgetting that threatening smell of demon and fire. Doesn't acknowledge, either, the passing pat to his shoulder.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-23 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
There's a small scrape of sound from him at her casting, somewhere between surprise and amusement, both minor. His hand squeezes hers, and there's a glimmer of white-blue light, similar in the way it settles over her, motes of it snagging in her hair, in the weave of her clothing, ready to spring away like cold embers if she's struck.

"We can try to keep it that way."

And he has no desire to get in range of fire and lava. Having a good handle over those elements in his own casting grants him exactly no immunity at all from its worst effects up close.

Keeping their hands in a loose tangle when he goes to start them off, he adds anyway, "I may try to draw its fire if it has any capability for distance. It won't be as sacrificial as it looks, so keep your focus on caging it."
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-05-29 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
The smell of fire is quick to suffuse this patch of forest, but it takes barely a scrap of thought for Marcus to hold smoke at bay of them both as he brings his staff to bear, moving off from Derrica's position. It all does happen quickly as desired, and roughly to the sketch of the plan they'd made: stone cracks beneath the rippling form of the rage demon, turning lava into cracked obsidian as magic pulses up from beneath the earth to merge creature to ground.

Beneath the crack and snap of lightning that comes next, he sends jagged, gracelessly flung rock, flames trailing off the edges, gleaming with Fade green from whence it was summoned. There is but one instance of a jet of fire sent his way, and where it strikes, he only winces, Derrica's defenses flaring bright along with the radial deflection of fire from his body, instinctive magic of his own.

No burns, no scratches, only some initial shock of weariness cladding his bones by the time the last strike of bludgeoning stone disassembles the demon's form, leaving it an acidic pool of black ichor and scattered flame and lava.

Satisfying. If there is only a brief moment of checking each other over before Marcus is hauling himself up into Kevin's saddle, now untethered, it's only because he would rather they both be elsewhere.
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[personal profile] luaithre 2023-06-10 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
Marcus has no complaints for it, this room, having experienced about every degree of Riftwatch-related accommodations, from a burrow dug into the Anderfels sand and his saddlebag for a pillow to palatial chambers that felt assigned to him by mistake. Much less likely, that latter example, and the former all too frequent, but all this to say: a private room with the luxury of a latching door and a low slung bed isn't anything to complain about, never mind the low down slant of the attic ceiling.

He hands her the cloth. The work of the day feels heavy in his muscles and bones in a way that still satisfies him to feel.

"In the morning," Marcus says, of a report, not the cloth, which is in her hand. "The Commander won't mind the wait, with good news. He'll assume it for the evening."

He thinks, anyway. Has decided.

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