[Yes but don't call too much attention to it ok!!!]
I don't-- [Hrm. Matthias looks down at his hands, and frowns.] I don't think so. I mean, I dunno. Maybe. I dunno. Is it like--big? The feeling? Like... you can feel it, right? And you know that's what it is, that it's-- a god, that's... guiding you?
[tmw you realize your good friend might be kind of heretical but also not entirely off-base
Which is to say Matthias (in a rare moment) realises he isn't sure of what he can say to that. Or that he knows what she's talking about, or that he's ready to confront something that big. This in of itself is like standing at the brink of some deep ocean precipice. If he goes over, he's over, and that's it.]
[Well. Hang on.] I mean-- No. [And then, more genuinely--] You couldn't make me uncomfortable. I like you too well, for that. It's not that I'm uncomfortable, just that, I dunno.
I've never really thought about things like this before. And you have. S' just... different. That's all.
[She said MAN and not BOY wow that means so much. First of all, it distracts him. Secondly, it means that Matthias has to work very hard to keep his tone nice and neutral and casual--]
Yeah, well. I mean it. But--yeah. I'm glad I know you as well.
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I don't-- [Hrm. Matthias looks down at his hands, and frowns.] I don't think so. I mean, I dunno. Maybe. I dunno. Is it like--big? The feeling? Like... you can feel it, right? And you know that's what it is, that it's-- a god, that's... guiding you?
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Yes, something close to that. I just think there's a different force at work. That's all.
[ "that's all" as if this is some small thing. ]
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[tmw you realize your good friend might be kind of heretical but also not entirely off-base
Which is to say Matthias (in a rare moment) realises he isn't sure of what he can say to that. Or that he knows what she's talking about, or that he's ready to confront something that big. This in of itself is like standing at the brink of some deep ocean precipice. If he goes over, he's over, and that's it.]
Have you... always thought that?
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Yes. All my life. It doesn't make you uncomfortable?
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[Well. Hang on.] I mean-- No. [And then, more genuinely--] You couldn't make me uncomfortable. I like you too well, for that. It's not that I'm uncomfortable, just that, I dunno.
I've never really thought about things like this before. And you have. S' just... different. That's all.
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You're a good man, Matthias. I'm glad I know you.
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Yeah, well. I mean it. But--yeah. I'm glad I know you as well.